On the DEWLine 2.0: Dwight Williams

I keep thinking there's some online event I ought to be attending right now. Not sure what it is. Classes, therapy, political rally...?

Seanan McGuire made a point about the versions of "Home" we keep on carrying with us, no matter what other people said about and did to those versions back when they actually existed physically.

There were things about living out west that I hated and feared. That I was glad to be away from when I moved here to Ottawa-Gatineau. There are things that I was and still am glad to have found when I got here. I didn't go through gentrification (yet), and my city may be less hard-hit by climate derangement during the rest of my lifetime than other parts of this planet.

But I realize now that it still hurt that I felt that I had to leave in the first place. Being able to fly away to a place that felt like it was going to be healthier for me...and was and still is, in several ways...doesn't detract from that hurt.

1. After watching the third episode of Stumptown, I finally watched the first episode of Diggstown tonight. Had the first season saved on the family PVR for months, and could not find the guts to watch it until tonight.

Yes, I know how that choice of phrasing looks.

Diggstown is worth the time, and I should have made that time sooner. My dumb.

2. I am sad at the death of Alexei Leonov. Yes, he was 85, and he'd lived a full life. He was one of the space explorers I first learned to know the names along with the likes of Armstrong, Aldrin and Collins. The first space mission I have clear memories of watching coverage of on TV was Apollo-Soyuz. We're talking multi-page spreads in the Regina Leader-Post back when they were locally owned - so I want to believe - and not a pawn of Postmedia to serve the international right-wing-big-money movement.

3. I got my hair cut today at the barber shop I've been dealing with since my dad introduced me to their dad. One of the brothers is in hospital and the other is not well yet still working. I fear for them. I couldn't do more than pay for the haircut and wish them well.

4. Enjoyed watching the first two Short Treks, "Q & A" and "The Trouble With Edward".

5. I am still trying to work out some thoughts on the changes to OC Transpo's network that took effect this week.

6. I am not indifferent. I am trying to pay attention.

Turns out I've forgotten to attend whatever ceremonies were happening today at the Peacekeepers' Monument on Sussex.

Memory failure.

I have another Eye Institute checkup tomorrow morning. This one will include a first: an ultrasound scan. I remember being told this is to establish a baseline for the stuff they're keeping watch on inside my left eyeball.

I also remember being told what they're looking at during my last appointment, and I remember writing the phrase down. I can't recall the phrase, though.

Feeling like I'm forgetting something important all the time.

Not alone in this feeling...

I owe an apology to bunsen_h for my memory lapse, don't I?

Azzeddine Soufiane.
Khaled Belkacemi.
Aboubaker Thabti.
Abdelkrim Hassane.
Mamadou Tanou Barry.
Ibrahima Barry.

They also died too soon.

Of terrorism.

For whatever help it gives anyone in my friendlist right now: tomorrow will be the 15th anniversary of my father's death. I still miss him, despite the passage of the years. The day remains the birthday of others whose well-being and wisdom I value. There is a balance in this.

I wish you good tidings, whatever you're celebrating or commemorating.