Versions of Home Long Dead

[dewline]

Seanan McGuire made a point about the versions of "Home" we keep on carrying with us, no matter what other people said about and did to those versions back when they actually existed physically.

There were things about living out west that I hated and feared. That I was glad to be away from when I moved here to Ottawa-Gatineau. There are things that I was and still am glad to have found when I got here. I didn't go through gentrification (yet), and my city may be less hard-hit by climate derangement during the rest of my lifetime than other parts of this planet.

But I realize now that it still hurt that I felt that I had to leave in the first place. Being able to fly away to a place that felt like it was going to be healthier for me...and was and still is, in several ways...doesn't detract from that hurt.

Comments

[thewayne]

I was born in and lived in Phoenix for over 40 years but knew that eventually the air pollution would force me to leave. And when I'm there, regardless of what time of year, I have to close the recirculation on my car or I'll cough constantly while driving!

Phoenix has continued to grow, gotten more crowded, and though I will continue to go back to visit family and friends, I also can't see me ever going back there as conditions are much worse.

[dewline]

I'm never going to be able to go back. Not just the emotional and cultural barriers...it's the financial ones too. Part of what enrages me about these Wexiteers...they want to throw international law in my way too.