dewline: Snoopy screaming in frustration (Augh)
I resent having had COVID-19. No matter how mild my case was.

I resent that others have suffered and died of it, and are suffering and dying of it as I typed these words.

I resent being told to "learn to live with it". I resent having to bear witness to others around me being told to "learn to live with it".

I resent being made to take more chances with not only my own safety, but that of family, of friends, of strangers than I am comfortable with on a daily basis just to get by, by way of the careless choices of other people. Those people making these careless choices could be the person behind me in line at the grocery store or in the premier's office at Queens Park. Doesn't matter. The consequences for me and mine and the strangers around us remain the same.

Leslie Charteris - so I remember imperfectly - once wrote that our resentments will kill us if we let them. The resentments I count above are ones I fear I'll have to hold onto to keep myself and/or other people alive in this time of Pandemic not yet ended.
dewline: Quotation: "I grieve with thee" (Grief)
Naomi's funeral was held this morning.

I attended via Zoom, like some two dozen other friends and relatives. The Pandemic in Progress was certainly part of why. The travel time to and from the cemetery was also a factor. Ottawa is a very large city, so local public transit's current limitations meant a two-hour-in-each-direction travel time between where I currently live and the cemetery.

Anyway...the service was short, and I have a sense of her family and other friends being robbed of precious things by the Pandemic here too. [personal profile] siderea has discussed such things at some length in recent weeks and months: the loss of ritual, of community, stolen away by the need to protect one another. So have others, be they friends, family, or strangers to me, across the world. The rituals of shiva in particular, in this funeral's context, came to mind.

It's not the tradition I was raised with, but I don't much care about that. Unearned pain has been suffered here by too many already. And in order to move past my resentment, to master it and cast it out, I must first admit that it is here. In my heart.

And I miss my friend. One more among several, already gone.

Thank you, Naomi, for bringing what you could and what you did to my life.
dewline: Text - "On the DEWLine" (Default)
The more I learn about jobs in that field, the more I am reminded of something: I don't have the training, but I've always been interested in map design and technologies related to it.
dewline: Text: Trekkish Chatter Underway (TrekChatter)
Yeah, so that last five minutes broke me.
dewline: Doctor Who quote: Books. Best Weapons in the World (Books)
Bus maps, swapp'd away;
Swapp'd in: flowchart-style now,
Geographies gone.

Trapp'd on King Edward,
Babe in mother's arms, screaming.
Mother, herself trapp'd.

All praise be to angst!
That "sweet" torment, addictive
to far too many.

Reservation's made
to share some newish poems
at next week's meeting.
dewline: Text: Education is Not a  Luxury!!! (education)
A lot of people are going to a lot of effort to produce this result by design, as we know from the news.

https://www.cnn.com/2019/04/25/health/gallup-world-emotions-index-scli-intl/index.html
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In reply to an essay by psychotherapist Felix Vikhman on the situation in Washington published by The Walrus:

There is one small complaint I have about the closing paragraphs of that prediction for the futures of many of the White House staff during the Trump years: it is not just one nation now entrapped as Trump's emotional hostage.

It is the entire human race.

For those who have ensured this outcome for us all, I do not know that I will ever be able to forgive that. If we survive it.
dewline: self-portrait, taken while drawing (Sketching)
Ashby, like Spider Robinson and others since his arrival, is an ex-American (or in her case, in the process of becoming so). I've been paying some degree of attention to her opinion columns in the Ottawa Citizen, particularly in the last few months.

This column is one of the root causes of my worry about "annexation or blitzkrieg?".

And then there's this one about how we use - and react to how others use - the Internet.

You may want to look at some of her other columns.

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